Poison

Zitat von miyoko am 8 Dezember, 2006, 1726 Uhr

Poison

Such pretty smiles, you gave to me.
Such deadly words- all of them lies.
I gave you my love and handed you my life.
You broke me.
And gratefully, I drank your poisonous smiles,
And ate your murderous words.
Happily,
I swallowed your beautiful lies,
And kissed our deadly lips,
Loving every second of the pain.
My body, mind, spirit, thrilled at the pain you gave me,
For it was the only love you’d ever shown me.
I never knew the feeling of love- all I knew was pain.
But I loved your pain, your poison, your lies.
The lies you told me were heaven to my mind,
Merely because they meant you cared what I thought of you.
And your poison, sweet poison, in all that you did,
Brought my soul to life, or so I thought.
But I’m not drinking your poison, anymore,
I’m not drowning in your smiles,
Choking on your murderous words,
And I’m not kissing your deadly lips, anymore.
And you don’t like that.
I no longer give you my love- I have mended my broken heart,
And that pisses you off. Well that’s just too bad.
I have built a wall, between you and I,
Of which your lies are the mortar, and my pain the bricks.
There is no longer any love for you in my heart- only hate and coldness.
I can live without you now. I don’t need you- I am free,
Free from the shackles you put on my heart,
Which were meant to keep me close to you.
You can’t stand my freedom, but that’s too bad.
Because I’m not drinking your poison, anymore.
You’ve put me through all of this,
And now it’s my turn.
So here’s my poison.
Drink it.